Connected by this one vast land
Whoever sheds a tear, whoever cries out of joy
If we listen carefully, we should be able to hear them
Even today, someone, somewhere, still prays for someone else
Connected by this one vast land
Countless ordinary days of common people
Towns surge with hope, companions cry in despair
Even today, someone, somewhere, still prays for someone else
Connected by this one vast land
What kind of tears, what kind of joyful voices
If we listen carefully, we should be able to hear them
Even today, someone, somewhere still prays for someone else.
What a sad fate.
But
I will
Pray
For
You...
Sunday, 6 July 2014
Friday, 24 May 2013
Sigh
"I promise you I will not talk to him anymore."
"I promise you I will not leave you, at least until the end of my cegep years."
"I promise you as long as you don't leave me, I will never break your heart."
"I promise you as long as we try, we can be the strongest."
You ask me to look at the good side in your actions, but...
What kind of actions are those above...
Sigh
...
...
...
Sigh...
"I promise you I will not leave you, at least until the end of my cegep years."
"I promise you as long as you don't leave me, I will never break your heart."
"I promise you as long as we try, we can be the strongest."
You ask me to look at the good side in your actions, but...
What kind of actions are those above...
Sigh
...
...
...
Sigh...
Friday, 1 March 2013
To a brighter future
These last days were propably the most torturing days so far in my life. I woke up every morning with a tormented soul and a worn out mind. However, because of someone's love and care, I was able to get a hold of myself and come back to reality. In my depression, I realized a lot of things that can inspire me for the future.
When I doubt myself:
1- If I love you and I know I love you the most, why worrying about someone else that may interfere?
2- I am giving all my love to you, I believe in good karma, ie. you will do the same to me.
3- If I am afraid of some fucking awesome guy taking my place in the future, I will just become that fucking awesome guy.
When I doubt love itself:
1- I am a good person (hopefully), you are a good person. Why can't we be together and have happy moments?
2- 10 years is long indeed, but time does go by every day. Every day that passes by is a success and is worth to be proud of.
3- I am so attached to you that even depression can't make my love decrease, what should I be scared of in the future?
Every morning I wake up and slowly get back to my senses, knowing that someone still loves me at this very instant. That is probably the happiest feeling in this world. I don't know what I can expect more.
Now, dear depression, would you please gtfo?
When I doubt myself:
1- If I love you and I know I love you the most, why worrying about someone else that may interfere?
2- I am giving all my love to you, I believe in good karma, ie. you will do the same to me.
3- If I am afraid of some fucking awesome guy taking my place in the future, I will just become that fucking awesome guy.
When I doubt love itself:
1- I am a good person (hopefully), you are a good person. Why can't we be together and have happy moments?
2- 10 years is long indeed, but time does go by every day. Every day that passes by is a success and is worth to be proud of.
3- I am so attached to you that even depression can't make my love decrease, what should I be scared of in the future?
Every morning I wake up and slowly get back to my senses, knowing that someone still loves me at this very instant. That is probably the happiest feeling in this world. I don't know what I can expect more.
Now, dear depression, would you please gtfo?
Friday, 22 February 2013
Depression
Oh hello there first depression of 2013...
Every morning I wake up, the best description of my state will be "a heavy heavy heart". So heavy I want to go back to sleep, so heavy I want to say goodbye to this life. But at the same time this heavy heart doesn't have anything inside, feels like pure vacuum.
Urges to scream, urges to hit something hard, urges to bite, urges to leave everything and wander alone in the cold streets, urges to cry sometimes.
Why...
Every morning I wake up, the best description of my state will be "a heavy heavy heart". So heavy I want to go back to sleep, so heavy I want to say goodbye to this life. But at the same time this heavy heart doesn't have anything inside, feels like pure vacuum.
Urges to scream, urges to hit something hard, urges to bite, urges to leave everything and wander alone in the cold streets, urges to cry sometimes.
Why...
Wednesday, 30 January 2013
My Dearest^(infinity) Love...
Ok it's been rather long I haven't written any blog, time to do a little sum up :)
Once upon a time, a man named Henry met an angel called Jenny at the YMCA of Chinatown. The brief encounter during that summer of 2012 left deep impression in each other's mind. Jenny was impressed by the (apprently) good skills of Henry in badminton, while Henry was amazed by the audacity of Jenny as she accepted to play with him even tho they didn't know each other at all. Both thought, however, that they would never meet each other again. Nevertheless, the odds of life had decided to bring them together again, on a late Friday night, at the same YMCA. I say "the odds" because on that night, Henry was supposed to go a family dinner with his parents and their friends, but he felt rebellious and turned it down in order to go play badminton. As he walked down the stairs of YMCA, a familiar figure appeared: Jenny the Angel was wearing her dry-fit and short and walking upstairs. They stared in each other's eyes for a few seconds, and both recalled simultaneously each other's identity. They played against each other for the whole night and both were pleased by the presence of each other. On their way to the metro after gym, Henry carried Jenny's bag (heavy as fuck) for her all the way to the metro. Jenny found him very gentleman and kissed, spontaneously, Henry on the cheek. They befriended each other, first on Facebook and later in real life, and started to learn more about each other. On that special day, the last day in the 21st century that could have 3 identical last-two-digits, they commenced their relationship.
Ok end of flash back, back to the present.
Henry is a very very skeptical man and lacks confidence terribly. He is constantly worried about the length of the relationship. The reason is simple, he doesn't wish to let Jenny leave him, yet he cannot say what will happen after 5 years, after 10 years, after {X | let X belong to [0, lifetime]} years. What if the dopamine stops producing and love fades out? What if life decides to tear them apart again? Those questions tormented Henry for the entire week, and he asked many couples in his school for suggestions and ideas, but they still couldn't convince him. Today, as headache from lack of sleep tortured him during morning, as fever struck him down during noon, he had an APOTHEOSIS (<-- illumination).
Right now, in our relationship's period of honey moon, we love each other so much, we have impulses, we miss each other as soon as one leaves the other. But to love someone really, in my opinion, doesn't mean one has to change radically. Adaptation is needed, of course, but it is not meant to be a burden or pression. After years and years of knowing each other, their qualities, their flaws, one might find the other one plain and not as interesting as before. However, if one still cares about his/her other half, if one still cherish his/her other half, if one still wants to tell one's deepest secret to his/her other half, one still loves his/her other half.
Hence, love is:
When you lay down in your bed at night, exhausted by studies and overwhelmed by life, you are aware that miles away, in the same city, there is one person who is as tired as you, but who still texts you good night with a smile on his face.
When you wake up in your bed in the morning, sometimes haunted by nightmares, some other times unhappy to leave the warm bed, you are aware that miles away, in the same warm bed, there is one person who already texted you a lengthy good morning message and wished you to have a nice day.
When you are happy about doing well in an exam, you know that there is a person, miles away, who might not do as well as you did, but who will congratulate you with the truest of his feelings.
When you are sad about the life's harshness, you know that there will be a person by your side, always ready to listen to your ranting and to entertain you with his dorky jokes.
When you are panicking at midnight and needs a person to talk, you know that there is a person who is connected with you by a 10-digit number starting with 514, and who will ring at your door minutes after you ask him to come to your house.
When you act childish and become unreasonable, you know that there is person who pretends to be as childish as you, who sometimes argues with you, but who apologizes to you in the end regardless of who's right/wrong.
Now my love, I know I have numerous flaws. I get picky, I am very moody (just like you have PMS xD), I act childish sometimes, I am not the best-est guy ever on this planet. But I am sure about one thing, my love for you is true at this very moment, and as long as I have a heart (in every senses of the word), I will always care about you. Why?
"Baby you light up my world like nobody else", I think it's enough said, it summarizes the countless qualities of you that makes my life better.
As you said, I shall love you to the fullest in the present, with no regret. But before doing so, you told me about your estimate age of marriage right? Well I got 3 words to say to it:
Ten years? Potassium.
I love you Jenny. <3
Once upon a time, a man named Henry met an angel called Jenny at the YMCA of Chinatown. The brief encounter during that summer of 2012 left deep impression in each other's mind. Jenny was impressed by the (apprently) good skills of Henry in badminton, while Henry was amazed by the audacity of Jenny as she accepted to play with him even tho they didn't know each other at all. Both thought, however, that they would never meet each other again. Nevertheless, the odds of life had decided to bring them together again, on a late Friday night, at the same YMCA. I say "the odds" because on that night, Henry was supposed to go a family dinner with his parents and their friends, but he felt rebellious and turned it down in order to go play badminton. As he walked down the stairs of YMCA, a familiar figure appeared: Jenny the Angel was wearing her dry-fit and short and walking upstairs. They stared in each other's eyes for a few seconds, and both recalled simultaneously each other's identity. They played against each other for the whole night and both were pleased by the presence of each other. On their way to the metro after gym, Henry carried Jenny's bag (heavy as fuck) for her all the way to the metro. Jenny found him very gentleman and kissed, spontaneously, Henry on the cheek. They befriended each other, first on Facebook and later in real life, and started to learn more about each other. On that special day, the last day in the 21st century that could have 3 identical last-two-digits, they commenced their relationship.
Ok end of flash back, back to the present.
Henry is a very very skeptical man and lacks confidence terribly. He is constantly worried about the length of the relationship. The reason is simple, he doesn't wish to let Jenny leave him, yet he cannot say what will happen after 5 years, after 10 years, after {X | let X belong to [0, lifetime]} years. What if the dopamine stops producing and love fades out? What if life decides to tear them apart again? Those questions tormented Henry for the entire week, and he asked many couples in his school for suggestions and ideas, but they still couldn't convince him. Today, as headache from lack of sleep tortured him during morning, as fever struck him down during noon, he had an APOTHEOSIS (<-- illumination).
Right now, in our relationship's period of honey moon, we love each other so much, we have impulses, we miss each other as soon as one leaves the other. But to love someone really, in my opinion, doesn't mean one has to change radically. Adaptation is needed, of course, but it is not meant to be a burden or pression. After years and years of knowing each other, their qualities, their flaws, one might find the other one plain and not as interesting as before. However, if one still cares about his/her other half, if one still cherish his/her other half, if one still wants to tell one's deepest secret to his/her other half, one still loves his/her other half.
Hence, love is:
When you lay down in your bed at night, exhausted by studies and overwhelmed by life, you are aware that miles away, in the same city, there is one person who is as tired as you, but who still texts you good night with a smile on his face.
When you wake up in your bed in the morning, sometimes haunted by nightmares, some other times unhappy to leave the warm bed, you are aware that miles away, in the same warm bed, there is one person who already texted you a lengthy good morning message and wished you to have a nice day.
When you are happy about doing well in an exam, you know that there is a person, miles away, who might not do as well as you did, but who will congratulate you with the truest of his feelings.
When you are sad about the life's harshness, you know that there will be a person by your side, always ready to listen to your ranting and to entertain you with his dorky jokes.
When you are panicking at midnight and needs a person to talk, you know that there is a person who is connected with you by a 10-digit number starting with 514, and who will ring at your door minutes after you ask him to come to your house.
When you act childish and become unreasonable, you know that there is person who pretends to be as childish as you, who sometimes argues with you, but who apologizes to you in the end regardless of who's right/wrong.
Now my love, I know I have numerous flaws. I get picky, I am very moody (just like you have PMS xD), I act childish sometimes, I am not the best-est guy ever on this planet. But I am sure about one thing, my love for you is true at this very moment, and as long as I have a heart (in every senses of the word), I will always care about you. Why?
"Baby you light up my world like nobody else", I think it's enough said, it summarizes the countless qualities of you that makes my life better.
As you said, I shall love you to the fullest in the present, with no regret. But before doing so, you told me about your estimate age of marriage right? Well I got 3 words to say to it:
Ten years? Potassium.
I love you Jenny. <3
Tuesday, 30 October 2012
MCSA
The show is finally over. We made it, 1 month, three-hour show.
Show was pretty decent overall, nothing went wrong.
Biggest regret of the night was that I blanked out and forgot to say many names of our executive board during the final speech. I dunno what to do to atone...I believe credit should be given when it is due, but now I missed the opportunity.
A heart-felt thanks to all the executives and Juniors. You guys are the ones who made the show possible.
Forgive me...
Show was pretty decent overall, nothing went wrong.
Biggest regret of the night was that I blanked out and forgot to say many names of our executive board during the final speech. I dunno what to do to atone...I believe credit should be given when it is due, but now I missed the opportunity.
A heart-felt thanks to all the executives and Juniors. You guys are the ones who made the show possible.
Forgive me...
Tuesday, 16 October 2012
Life is good
Humanities midterm I + Linear assignment this Thursday.
Chemistry interactive activities next Monday.
English 20% Oral next Thursday.
Waves midterm II next Friday.
MCSA Final Show next Sunday.
Potassium.
Chemistry interactive activities next Monday.
English 20% Oral next Thursday.
Waves midterm II next Friday.
MCSA Final Show next Sunday.
Potassium.
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